God Moments Missions Travel Posted July 10, 2022

I didn't feel much better when we landed in Florida. The full humidity made breathing feel like insufflating syrup through a coffee straw. We eventually met up with the Envision Miami coordinator Matt Perrotto and LEAD co-director Clint Berri, and they briefed us at the campus where we stayed. Not that I remember much of it, because I kept nodding in and out of sleep.

This is where I mention that I was suffering from obstructive sleep apnea and did not have the means to get health insurance or a CPAP machine to help me breathe properly at night. The LEAD program likes to gauge one's levels of physicality, mentality, emotions, and faith with buckets. I can tell you that mine were all empty, and I felt like a barren wasteland of a man as I bawled my eyes out in front of the coordinator. As we were picking up dinner for everyone, I expressed my concerns about being effective at all on this trip. I wanted more than anything to just be in the right mindset.

He casually brushed it off and said "Yeah, don't worry about that. Just focus on being here and in the now."

I laughed hysterically. My overloaded and frayed mind couldn't handle the simplicity of his advice, but he had a point. One of my biggest takeaways from this trip was being creative and working with what I could do in the moment. When it comes to evangelizing, many Christians like to approach it on specific, pre-determined terms. It's not uncommon for me to walk around downtown Akron and see somebody on the corner passing out books and tracts to the oncoming crowd. And there's nothing wrong with that... but if everything happens for a reason and none of us are where we are by accident, then why not go out into the world and see what it throws at us?